@susanlauren and all, thank you for your kind comments. I am a newbie here and a pigmy among giants.

I literally thought I needed psychiatric help through this. I kept thinking - this can't possibly be right, this violates everything I know about virology, human biology, epidemiology, genetics. No, let me just go to pubmed.gov and start reading.

No, surely the Big Brains in Charge of All The Thingz could not be making the policies they did. But they did - with malice aforethought.

Since when in ANY disease ever have physicians told patients - hey, this is a new disease and just go home and when you are turning blue and drowning in your own secretions, then come into the ER and we'll give you the $10K treatment, and if you die, hey! Our hospital is $39K richer and all the docs are billing at the very top of the scale!

The lies, the disinformation, the insanity, the corruption, the censorship - I just don't recognize my profession.

I wonder if I ever really did.